A couple of months a go the lovely Melanie from Melanie Grace Photography came over to my house to photograph us for her “Motherhood in my words” series. I have only just got round to posting the photos on my blog because my internet is really bad at the moment and I can’t upload such large files. Anyway, I will link to the blog post on her website here.
Melanie asked me to choose the location of the shoot and I chose my own home. We always take photos when we’re out and about (although not to this standard) but I wanted to capture the memories of the every day, homey moments with my girls that I want to treasure forever.
Melanie asked me to write a few words for her blog about my experience of motherhood, here’s what I wrote:
Motherhood In My Words
At first, my confidence was rock bottom because I didn’t know what I was doing as a first time mum, I was constantly second guessing myself and worrying about whether I was doing the wrong thing.
I breastfed the girls, which meant for the first four months there was pretty much always a baby with me. With that I started to feel like I lost my identity and with it my confidence. I didn’t know who I was without the girls and it actually got to the point where I didn’t like going anywhere without them. I became a bit of a social recluse because I felt like I had nothing in common with anyone and other mums wouldn’t like me because I was only 22 when I had the girls and as such I was a lot younger than most mums I met!
But as the girls got older I began to regain my confidence and I actually felt like I started to learn more about myself and aspects of my character that I hadn’t noticed before. I started to find a lot about myself that I liked, such as strength, determination and unbelievable love which gave me more confidence and made me feel proud of myself.
As the girls became more independent and we settled in to a better routine I found myself finding more enjoyment in going out with them and also meeting other mums and became happy and confident in myself instead of constantly worrying about what people thought of me.
The best advice I could give to a new mum would be to remember that nothing is forever. The really difficult times won’t last forever but neither will the good times so make sure you treasure all the good moments and that will help you through the bad ones! You can never take too many photos and videos and you’ll always look back and wish you had more! Especially in the first few weeks, make sure you are in lots of pictures despite how bad you think you look because you’ll regret it if you don’t! You don’t have to show anyone else anyway!
I would also say try to be relaxed and go with the flow, we all have ideals of how things will be, we won’t use dummies and we’ll be in a routine from six weeks but if you aren’t pragmatic you end up stressing yourself out!
Sometimes it’s ok to throw the advice and the rules out the window and do it your way – parental instinct is a real thing!
I absolutely adore all the photos that Mel took. We started off in the living room, playing and reading books. I must admit the girls weren’t very good at pretending the camera wasn’t there!
We then got our wellies on and headed outside. Playing in the garden is such a huge part of our life here and I’m so glad we captured it.
Then we headed back in and the girls had their lunch.
I then got the girls ready for their nap!
I could not be more thrilled with the photographs and I would recommend a session with Mel to anyone.