Hungry & desperate..

Ok so, let me just point out before the Save the Students charity gets wind of this… this blog post is not a cry for help! Its not me saying…help me I’m a poor, hungry & desperate student! Actually what I want to talk about is a different type of hunger entirely.

Devotional time… or quiet time, time with the Lord or whatever you label it, what I want to write about it the time that one sets aside to spend doing Christian-y time things such as reading the Bible & praying. A couple of years a go, before I went on my gap year, ( I didn’t even know what this was… the extent of my Bible reading was saying in my head ‘Lord, speak to me!!!’ then closing my eyes and opening my Bible at a random page… suffice to say it didn’t usually work out too well!!

When I began my time on XL I started to really get in to the Bible… every day we had time set aside for reading the Bible and at first I would read it and just think … “oh right cool” and that would be that. However, after a while… thoughts started coming to my mind about what parts of scripture meant, I started to look on the internet for commentaries and I even asked for a study Bible for Christmas so that I could delve even deeper in to the word of God.

Nowadays, I am so busy that I don’t find time to intensely study and read around passages that I read in the Bible daily… but what hasn’t changed is my desire for the word of God… every day I actually want to read my Bible.. I love learning about the different things that the people of God have done over the years, I love reading the words that Jesus actually spoke and I love hearing about God’s unending love for me. It says in Hebrews 4: 12 “The Word of God is living and active and sharper than any double edged sword” and I have realised that this could not be more true. The Bible, despite being written thousands of years a go is still relevant to my life, our lives today. It is still interesting, thrilling and at times even funny… it is full of life. I am so hungry for the word of God that if I happen to get in to bed one night without having read the Bible, I physically cannot sleep without reading the words that were breathed by my creator. Its not about law, and feeling obliged to read … no its much more, its a desperation!

Prayer, has always been something which I found harder. I have tried every thing from putting a count down clock on so that I would be forced to pray for twenty minutes to writing post-it notes and sticking them around my room. Its only recently that I have really grasped what prayer is for me… since I have been driving to uni daily and spending hours and hours during the week alone in my car, I have decided to use part of that time to speak to God. Notice I said speak, not pray. I tried to start speaking to God just as if it was Josh sitting next to me in the passenger seat. This has been incredible, instead of trying to pray lofty prayers which sounded Biblical and intelligent… I have just been speaking to my friend in my natural way of speaking and it has changed my prayer life completely.

Lastly, the Bible says in 1 Thessalonians 5:17 that we should “pray without ceasing” and this is what I am trying to aim for… to live life with a constant dialogue in my head or spoken with my creator, about anything and everything! That is true friendship.

“Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.” Psalm 119:105 


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